Well, it was just another weekend of packing up and getting onto the road once more. We left Fort Worth Sunday Morning. The plan was to get here on Monday (Ponchatoula), spend a few days with Patrick here. Then mom was to pick us up on Thursday and was suppose to head to the Seawolves game on Friday (might I add that it is the last game of the hockey season) and then spend the weekend at Jeremy and Karen's. But as usual, my plans get messed up some way or how. We still get to go back home to Mississippi and spend the weekend at Jeremy's but no Seawolves....god damn it. I have only been to once game this season..now I have to wait till next year. Oh well, guess things are suppose to happen for a reason. I am so sick of planning things and them not working out. And thats all I have done all my life, plan, plan, plan. By the age of 12 I had my whole life planned out. But of course things don't work like that. There always seem to be that one road bump on the way that sends you off in another direction. I have had it though. I believe from this day on I just may go with the live each day as it is your last. Just see where the fuck life takes you. I mean, of course there is nothing wrong with that, I just always had animosity toward the idea. I always had believed that if you didn't have any idea or "plan" to what you were going to do in life, that you would end up no where. But lately I have noticed that it just may not work as I thought it would. So, I am going to give it a chance. Just me living my life day to day. Goodbye cruel "planned" world I use to have.

I finally can say in a few more weeks I will be some-what of a college student. Haha. I will be taking a Veterinarian Technician Associates Degree from Penn Foster..In which Penn Foster is also the school that I graduated high school from. But you know when I was looking up some info on Vet Techs, I started to think of Peta. Don't ask me why, I have no clue. Peta is an organization I have my pluses with and my negatives. I mean when they did that whole thing with buying the plot next to the KFC colonel, that to me was immature and had no point. I understand the grudge they have with KFC (I have seen the videos) but there is no reason to be THAT childish..But alot of the other things they fight for I agree with. Especially slaughterhouses (I mean, wouldn't it be cool if they could AT LEAST euthanize each animal humanely), Petco (I know because my sister works at a vet hospital and they have to help alot of sick rodents that are at the stores), and Circus's. Now with the Circus, I myself do not go to them, but not just because of  animal cruelty/beating reasons. I mean, I do believe that there are some Circus's that do actually beat there animals to perform the way they want them too, but I do not go because I hate the fact that there are the elephants and tigers that have to travel and live in a trailer or in a small cage/pen for there whole life. They are wild animals, and deserve freedom to run and roam and eat whenever they want too. Like with zoo's, I have seen ones that have gotten caught beating and hurting animals, but I know a large percentage do not harm there animals, of all things they try to give the animals all that they can. Then again, like with the circus's, I hate seeing wild animals not being where they should be, able to roam. To the point though, alot of Peta isn't all that bad. Just like any other group, they do sometimes do things that have no point. I do feel quite weird myself on the subject of Peta activities, because I love animals, I have all my life. But because I eat meat like people in history have done since the beginning of time, does not make me a horrible person! When you think about it, I bet alot of tribes and nomads in the prehistoric era and long after, would not have made it so long, or had survived if it weren't for eating animals and using there fur. Especially ones that lived in icey terrain, there are no grasses and/or leaves to make clothing for warmth. Without the fur of an animal, they might not have survived. Then where would you and I be today?  One of the only things that keep me from ever being able to go Vegan is seafood believe it or not. I was raised on it, my family is all from New Orleans. And Peta is very much against eating Crawfish and Crab. But that is one of the other things I disagree with, do you realize how many of them are out there?! Trust me, I really don't believe there is any chance in hell that Crawfish, Shrimp or Crab will go extinct. 

I don't think anyone enjoys doing that first journal entry. But I guess I may update on where I am at in my life.Well, the pluses..I am engaged. (To the that one and only true love if I might add) Finally graduated, took me long enough >,< damn homeschooling. And like many, got that big tax check coming..Which then will lead to the other plus of car shopping. I do actually have a car now, but that would have to be in the negatives. Its a Lincoln Town Car aka piece of shit, or better known as the "boat". More negatives than positives, but give it time, it shall change. Negatives things include, I currently owe a $900 bill to a school I never attended (long story), I am staying with my mother in Fort Worth,TX...many, many miles away from my fiance..I miss him so much. Its all for the better..trying to save up money. I still have yet to get my license. And the best of it all, I gained weight. Which is nothing new, so we won't go on with that.

That covers a bit right now.     I am leaving Sunday morning to go stay with Patrick (the fiance if I haven't covered that already) for a week or so. I am def. looking forward to spending some more time with him. Good enough....Ta ta for now.